Saturday, March 30, 2013

HARD WEEK!!

I know that all weeks are harder for me now, but this week was really hard.  Thursday would have been Jennifer's 35th birthday!  We always enjoyed celebrating her birthday and had such good times planning it.  I always tried to make that day so special for her.,,,,she was my greatest gift in life!  She was my light and brought so much joy to me.  God couldn't have given me a better daughter to love and cherish.  Since she passed away, Pete and I would buy a tree or rose bush to plant in her memory on her birthday....I am still trying to decide what to plant this year.  The weather has been pretty rainy, so I didn't get one this week.  I will try to find another angel face rose to plant.  We lost our other one in the ice storm a couple of years ago.  I have been trying to find another one.  It is a purple rose and is so beautiful.  My sweet friend, Missy, gave me the first one.  She has one too and always sends me a picture of it, when it first bloome.  Missy is such a sweet, caring and compassionate friend. 

Today I am having everyone over to celebrate George's 50th birthday, which is tomorrow.  Since tomorrow is Easter, we are having the get together today.  I so enjoy cooking for everyone....it will be a bittersweet day.  I am happy that I will get to see everyone, but will be hard having our first family gathering without Pete.  I don't know who will be our new meat slicer....that was always Pete's job.  I guess I will hand the electric knife down to someone else LOL!

I hope that everyone will stop and remember why we celebrate Easter!  Jesus died for us, so that we can live!  On one of the Easter cards I made this year was the sentiment....We live and die, Christ died and lived!!!  AMEN!

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

NOTEBOOK ON LIFE!

How many times in the past six weeks have I asked myself.....why didn't I pay more attention to the things that Pete did around here???  How I wish I had kept a notebook on such things as how to set a mouse trap, where the septic tank is,  how to open the door to change the filter on the heat and air unit etc. etc.  You just take such things for granted, I guess.  I am just thankful for the knowledge I can get from You tube and Google....that helps alot.  I am learning, but it would have been so much easier had I kept a Notebook on Live.....just saying!!!

Monday, March 18, 2013

WHAT A BLESSING!

My church, Fellowship North, has a ministry feeding the homeless under the bridge.  I have wanted to be a part of this ministry for a long time.  I have given socks and things to the ministry, but I wanted to physically be involved, serving the homeless in person.  Yesterday, I was finally able to do it.  It was freezing cold outside, but our hearts were warm.  There was a nice church service with a message and singing praises.  I feel so grateful for having a roof over my head and warmth.  My heart aches for these people, knowing that they have no place to go.  We were cold and were shivering, as we served them, but then we were able to leave in a warm car and go to a warm house.....these people do not have that option.  I will pray for them daily and am already looking forward to helping next month.  Thank you Mica and Karla for letting me know that you were doing this and encouraging me to sign up....can hardly wait until next month...God is good and He is good ALL the time!!!

THANK GOODNESS FOR GOOGLE

I have always been in awe from the wealth of information that you can get from Google....my mind still can't grasp how all this information is so easy to access....but I am ever so grateful.  Since Pete has passed away,  I have used it so many times.  How I wish that I had paid more attention to the little things that he did, that I now have no clue of how to do.  I think that I have heard a mouse at night.....not a big deal...IF you know how to set as mouse trap!  That is something that I have never done....Pete would always do that when needed!  Well, thanks to Google, I now will be able to set a trap tonight.  Now, if only there was a way to dispose of the thing, once I catch it....I am not looking forward to that!  It seems like Kimberly and I are using Google each weekend to learn how to do something that we don't know how to do.....like putting lacquer on the table we painted.  I am so thankful for Google!

My advice to all is to pay attention to the little things around the house that your spouse does.  I sure wish that I had paid more attention....don't know what I would do if I didn't have Google to help me out!

God is good and He is good ALL the time!

Thursday, March 14, 2013

BITTERSWEET SPRING!!

I love this time of year!  What wonderful memories I have of Spring!  Jennifer was born this month, love Easter and what it means to me, love the trees and flowers starting to bloom, the grass turning green and the anticipation of the return of our hummingbirds.  Pete and I would spend hours sitting on the deck watching our little birds....planning the garden and such!  I guess that is one of the reasons these past couple of weeks have been so hard for me.  It seems that I tear up over the smallest things these days.  I am sure that alot of it is that the reality that he is really gone, is sinking in.  It still just doesn't seem real, at times.  I miss him so much.  He was sick and hurting for so long...and I know that he didn't have any quality of life here.  He is now with Jennifer and they are both happy and healthy and I am grateful for that. 

I really don't know how people that don't know God, get through the loss of their loved ones.  I know that I will see them again, and that is what gets me through each day.  I know God will provide me with the strength I need to see me through this, He has always gotten me through my trials.  Like my sweet Mother always told me, life's trials always make you stronger.  I just want to follow Christ closer and do for others.  I don't have alot of money, but I have alot of time.  This Sunday, I am helping with the Feeding the Homeless ministry at church,  This is something that I have wanted to do for a long time....I am really excited about doing it.  I am sure that it will be a wonderful day!

I will have sad days this Spring and all the seasons to come, but I will still enjoy the renewal of what Spring brings to us......and marvel at the beauty that God gives us each day.  All we have to do, is open our eyes and hearts and we will find Him,,,,He is always there to walk by our side!

Happy Spring to all!